in a lullaby, i will follow you when the skies are blue

Thursday, July 9, 2009 @9:28 AM

mornningg.

im ups early today.
mood check: feeling okies 70% ?? ((:

yesterday i must declared im mentally drained
guess it was a test that god has put me thou..
in life i feel there bounds to be challenges but i guess youll just have to face them bravely and try your best to resolve it. .
crumbling down in tears and drowning yourself in sorrows wont work for sure.. *which is prob what little jocelyn might do in the past* but i have learnt tt..
yes i do believe that you can take some time to feel sad and all.but after that you got to try to think logically how you can approach this matter n try to be solve the problems.. cuz problems wont resolve itself..and clearing of misund is very impt to maintain good relationship with one another. be it kinship.friendship.n bgr.

so im glad that i was challenged ytd.
by a few matters in fact. but wells i believe at every point of life we are challenged be it big or small.and there are days when im totally blessed with many nice things as wells.
so confront the problems and dont shun away from it..from failures and challenges would enrich you.so when i meet up with problems i will tell myself *jocelyn, you can do it!* ((:

*and yesh i do pray for strength when im feeling challenged and god has been soso gracious to little jocelyn cuz he nvr fails to save me -childlike faith in my one and only god.*

since i feel that ytd matters are all so personal i wont elaborate more..
but i can thank the nice *angels* that company me thou my journey of down-ness ((:

yisi: i see my little self in her la..just wanted a company like her.so innocent n pure girl! ((: you make my afternoon so much more happier one. ur company is pleasurable.thou we just walk round cityhall aimlessly and i visited esplanade.a place tt i truely heartx ((:

sweedy: for being ever so understanding and ALWAYS there for me. DEAR sister! thanks! ((:
yesyes! im really trying to make more time for god..i wont compromise my time for god.but i hope you can understand that yes i have manymany commitments n im sure god will want us to live life to the fullest n achieve goodness in all aspects of life.. so work(esp i have alot different kinds currently.unfortunately :x ) n time spend with family n friends.bestie n even my boy. thanks for not judging me as a sister but constantly guilding me along ((: *hugs!* my growth may be slow..but trust me..im making the effort! ((:

sister: yes..i only msg you much later..when i was more emotionally stable. ure reply was instanteous! and you keep ringing me up to give me emotion check! i choose to take it for the fact that you care alot for your sis here! (: thanksss! ((: and super thanks for the long sms you send me.. i made changes to my dinner plan and late night plan tt i have initially to spend more time with the family! (: n sat evening too! ((: so meimei .yesh i love the you.and the family! we can chit chat more tonight after jiajin's tution. ((: so no internet for us tonight uhs! haha..

weizhi: bestie..u read my blog! *touched* was thinking to msg you but i trust that you will know it if u read my blog.and i didnt wanna impose on you too! but yesyes! thanksss.you msg makes me feel the instant *bestie warmth* im soso glad we are both growing up to be emotionally stronger! hope we can chit chat soon.nth so much about the unhappy things tt happen. but more of the mundane happenings but prehaps funny things that happen in my life! (: TAKE CARE

sheena: my BIG sister! i super thankful to have a nice pal that stays so close to meee! ytd for supper at 1030pm. ((: whenever i feel upset.i can jio her! our faves hangout place whitesands hk cafe! and she knows it whenever im upset.she w/o fail wil agree to do supper with me..be it she is busy or not!! sheenaaaaa! thankssss for ALWAYS trying her best to meet me if she can. and after the late chilling with her..i will feel much betters ((: loves!

thanks for the many concerns shown by people on msn ytd..
there are quite a few so i shant name all..
sorry i couldnt share much cuz wasnt feeling the best to share..
but i reallyreally thankful for all these friends of mine for the concern!
you people makes me feel that im cared for even if its just out of concern for me as a friend..
i treasure the sincere care that you all have for me! ((:
may you all be blessed with manymany good friends and may i be there to drop just a simple sms or msn msg when ure feeling downs too! ((:

dear...

ytd was our first mth..
thou it was just a simple mos burger treat dinner from me to you at tm at 9pm.
*triple prawn burger and LARGE ice milk tea!* = contented us!! ((:
-as we are too busy speaking to one another during the evening-
i heartx the cross necklace tt u gotten from couple lab for me! thanksss ((: and the love letter!!
*it funny cuz it was hand written on cutted up paper -my boyy artwork *cough* haha..-
the letter in the bottle super meaningful! ((: it bought us many smiles and laughters! lols
i have always wanted to have a cross pendant.and my dear knows that i have been wearing my apple pendant always. so he wanted to get me a present that i will wear always and yes dear.
i will wear it alwayss esp when ure off one week of vacation nxt wk so tt give me strength when im missing youu((: *im so gg to get it engraved my name too!*
sorry i didnt get ur card written in time..but yesh..i pass it to you when i have written all nicely kies? (:
i love my day ytd! ((: andand..
i still wanna do zoo n secret garden stills! ((:

many plans intially .trip to the zoo.secret garden dinner.loading pics into fb.blogging about the nice things that we have done tgt.AND just spending the whole day tgt doing fun things!
but god chose to give us a hundle to cross ytd for our 1 mth anniversary..

nw thinking of it..it isnt tt all bad at all.. cuz i do believe that there are many ways that god can bless our relationship.. and by making us gg though this hundle we will learn new things about each other *ure right on the fact that at every stage of life we are learning new things about each other.and ure also right to mention that it only by getting into a relationship would you be able to know the person more which you will prolly not know about the person when u two are just friends*

the best present that god has gave us ytd is to make us both realise how much we truely love one another. ((:

the simple reflections on how we cope with our day ytd giving each other private time and also the things we engage ourselves in during tt time and the thoughts we were having in the day for each other clearly suggest that yes we care so much for the other to the extent that we put blame on ourself when the fault wasnt all the fault of urs..

and the honest talk we have in the evening i treasure.. ((:

we didnt promise forever love...
but lets just take things one at a time...
breaking points are inevitable if challenges do come our ways...
and if we truely love one another we will be able to overcome it...
all i can say is im living it all to god's plan...

but one matter i got to admit...
the one thing that you choose to tell me so honestly
i heartx for being so true to me. (:
but..it will stay be there..i cant just accept it all so easily..im sorry..
yeaps..cuz i hold it very close to me..

but all in all
i love you! (:
cuz your shaun-my boyy on the dayy..
08 june 2009
*silly grins*